Living in my 20s

 Hello, its 2022 and happy new year (i think?)  Anyway, looking back at 2021 I realised how much I have grown as an individual. Back in 2021, the goals I set for myself was in one word ' SELF-LOVE '. I experience a heartbreaking moment in 2020 where I was unhappy with myself. I remember crying in my bed almost every night because I was so clueless about my future, of what I wanted to be and what kind of person I am. I realised I was putting my happiness in other people's hands. Looking back now I'm like why hanis why u so stupid is it hahahahhahahaha  2021 was my year (yassss cegitu) I put myself first. I remove the people in my life that don't need me. I stop begging for other people's attention. I remember for a few months I literally stop updating anything on social media cause at that point I just don't care anymore. Why bother showing what I've been doing on social media, why should I post anything on Instagram if people don't even bother much a...

 Helloooo, Yesterday marks the end of a 2-month project as a student consultant for my team. Remember my last post on my friends and I joined a volunteer project where we become a student consultant to business owners? It feels like just yesterday I received the acceptance email to become a student consultant. In this project, we were assigned to guide a business owner in helping their problems which my team is helping the business in marketing and lack of promotion.  Through this project, I definitely learn a lot. This is my first time taking a job as a leader, I realised how difficult it is to guide my friends to make them feel comfortable and not feeling serabut with all the info that we get haha But in 2 months I managed it, have a calendar where we put all our ideas, links, meeting links, photos even! I would not say it was a smooth ride because we have our difficulties with the business owner. However, each team were assigned to one mentor. We are super lucky to get some...

 Helllloooooo, Currently I am in my 5th week into my 6th semester. I am barely alive (no joke I have meeting or discussions every night). Meetings involving the ambassador program, being a student consultant and group assignments. I cant believe I am experience stress that I usually have during the finals. So regarding the student consultant, now that is a very exciting news! I always wanted to do something like giving back to the society. I believe that during this hard times why not help someone in need? I followed a volunteer Instagram. I stumbled upon a program called Mpowerment F&B. They are looking for volunteers to be a student consultant. I ajak 4 of my friends to be in a team. Hence, the name Ray of Youth (ROY). They have over 100+ applicants. The application were very basic questions like what do you want to learn, what do you wish to gain at the end and etc. It turns out my team being shortlisted! yeayyyyyyy  Then here comes the interview. Because we are in a te...

 Helloooo, can you guys believe its October already?!?!?! I swear it just feels like it is still early September. It also marks that we only have two months left before the year 2022. The pandemic is still going on. I'm still having online classes till now :'(  Anyway, I still have two days before my class starts! My schedule is so pack from Monday till Friday like always *smile in pain* The good news is remember when I say I recorded a podcast with some of my volunteers mates? ITS NOW ON SPOTIFY! Head over to Speak Up Podcast on Spotify to listen! There are also a lot of other episodes recorded by other AIESEC. Check it out~ I still can't listen to the whole 39 minutes because I cringe listening to my own voice. But everyone do check it out! There are so much more interesting topics that are recorded by youth all around Malaysia. Hope you will get some benefit from it.  Bye Song recommendation today is so done by Joan. *so good i cry*

 Hi everyone, its beginning of my 6th semester and I don't think I'm able to blog if the semester starts (hopefully I can remember I have a blog). So after I volunteer for Speak Up Project, there was an Instagram post about becoming an Ambassador for AIESEC for my university. Guess what........ yes I applied. Honestly I applied at the very last minute on the last day of the submission. At a first thought becoming an ambassador was a big NO for me because it says that you have to be an influencer person and I am not an influencer. I can even count with one hand how many friends I have. But I figure ok la I give it a try. AND GUESS WHAT yas me *cries* I never thought in a million years I would be accepted cause me a very simple plain hanis. I still remember the interview they ask like  "What do you think is marketing" "You wrote in your weakness is talking in front of a crowd. How do you overcome it"  It was a very short like 15 minutes interview I think. To t...

I just ended my 4 weeks of Speak Up Project  *me after having 4 weeks of meeting every night* All in all it was such a memorable experience for me. I still remember when I first apply for the project I don’t even know if I am going to pass the interview as I am a shy person. I view myself as a very awkward person in a group of people. Before my semester break started I decided I want to do something productive this semester break and enhance my communication skills. That was my goal before starting the project is to enhance my communication skills. After 4 weeks I realise that I have gain so much more! I also realise that I became more confident in talking in English and making friends. I love how everyone was super supportive and nice. Every meeting was super fun and productive. Love the teamwork in every workshop. It was my first time virtual volunteering, teaching students to be more open, handling workshop, becoming a content deliverer, an emcee and recording a podcast. (Stay...